American Dream

You hear good things
Decide, right then, that minute,
purchase it. The dream

Used to mean impulsive,
These days
I typically,
at that given moment, buy
and then have it shipped
As a gift to myself
Right to my city
Down the block

These plans are all well and good
until an indefinite backorder
That's the way it works, duh.
I drove to my first instinct.
Assessed next typical avenue
ordered a pre-approval and it tells me,
this is backordered, are you sure?

And I say, well, no
I guess I'll find it elsewhere
Cancel my order a few days
unavailable
Find a random little solution
Order it from there
A couple days later,
we'll refund your money.

Time is running out
I need this dream asap.
Aware shipping time is not my friend,
checked today
I gave in.

Didn’t want to buy a damn substitution
Fake solution
Shadow of a dream
A home from the dollar-bin
But I gave in.

Then you ask, what's so bad about
What you already have?
A strong impetus towards architecture.
Physical comfort.
Home.

I want a library one day.
Memories hiding under the covers
A smell and feel.
Care that goes into decorating
Organizing closets
Walls large enough to hold wedding photos
Dropping salts into the whirlpool bathtub
Sleeping with cats all night.

Wait. That’s becoming what I already have
Near the neighborhood used bookstore
With 770 square feet
One bath
No closets

The dream is pretty much these things.
The format leaves MUCH to be desired.
The pictures on the wall out of alignment
Typos, corrections, liens and debts interfere.
It could be because
I want better for them -
them who are only DNA for now -
regardless of the medium.